Just an update, It's over it's been over and Jay never tried to even explain to me what happened... I haven't spoken to him since my last post and he has made no moves to even try to explain what happened and why it was so easy to kick me to the curb so abruptly. I'm completely and utterly flabbergasted over how I stood by him for this last year only seeing him less than a month in 365 days... and he could just dehumanize me and take the future he promised me and throw it out like it meant nothing to him... I saw all the red flags months ago, but I just didn't think it could happen to me... that he could do that after I stood by him and told him every day I loved him and how amazingly proud of him I was.
this is why I've been MIA and made my official move to Mass.
I find it strange not being a Navy girlfriend anymore. His friends all think he's an idiot for dropping me like that and tell me I deserve to be treated better and so do mine.
The Irony in the situation actually gets better.
Not having that physical relationship makes it easier to move on. I still care for him and wonder what if But the fact that he did what he did makes me Care very little for the kind of person he became and for what reason... I would like to know, but I have lost a whole hell of respect for that boy. I have a job now, and since my move to Mass I wake up every morning with out a care in the world. I am home sick a little, but to tell ya the truth when it comes to most of my friends at home, they all dropped back when I was dealing with a military relationship.
It is REALLY hard to just move on from a long relationship and very many broken promises... but I can always trust again... and I will love someone. This blog is officially over now and I will move to the next.. I just felt the need to clarify one last time... He has not told me, but I have told you.
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