My Friends Think I’m a drunk. Lol

I got a text from Jo yesterday that said:

FWD** If you saw me in the back of a police car what would you think I was arrested for? Respond to me and then forward this too your friends to see how many things your friends think you would be arrested for.***

Would you believe?

3 responses about unpaid tickets… these three unoriginal friends (even though I love them) cheated because they knew that actually happened. I was arrested for not paying a ticket via a warrant for my arrest you also get points and a free ride in a police car hand cuffs included.

2 friends responded indecent exposure for flashing a police car. (I did do this on a dare by mistake. The dare was to Flash the next car that drives by… not my fault it was a cop. And no I did not get arrested.)

The remainder of my friends and two cousins responded with drunk in public.
4) Said public intoxication with which
1) Included an & disorderly charge.
1) DUI (thanks Cuz *knocking on wood*)
2) The most original yet still involving Drinking… “Stealing Cigarettes from a bum in a drunken stopper.”

Well its Friday let’s get cracking on this drunk in public thing!!

*sMy last Real night in my apartment, *sigh*

it was Friday. My last Friday night in my apartment. I love my Friday nights. I actually spend most of them cuddled up in my blankets watching Ghost Whisperer and the new eX List (which I think is funny as Hell) and then go to sleep early. Yup I go to bed early on Fridays. I like it... and sometimes I do it because I'm hung over or over tired from the night before Thanks to Thirsty Thursday. *sigh* so I'm gonna miss that. my cozy Friday nights in my bed. but that's okay. I will get them back soon enough!!

I also spent Saturday in the apartment, But nothing was on my walls anymore.
It was just my bedTV, and Tv stand... and By Sunday it was empty thanks to Ej and R.

I don't want to get used to living at my dads but it will all work out.

Knock Knock Life I'm ready for you to start now

My last night and shift at Poor Henry’s was last night. I’m so sad. I figure I will be back begging for my job back soon enough.

I did decide that I am going to live locally with my father and go back and forth to PA when I feel like it more than I have no choice. I am still not excited about either my mom’s place or my father’s place. They aren’t comfortable, warm and fuzzy places to me with an old room untouched from high school like you see in the movies, Hence my anxiety about it. I’m knocking on life’s door right now and I’m hopping that I will be able to start it soon, but that just means sleeping on a couch at Uncle Chris’ and little rooms at Mom and Dad’s places for a little bit.

And can I just tell you about Life’s door! It’s not giving me any help with this insurance Exam stuff. I took the exam for the 4th time and still failed!!! I know I’m not stupid, and I studied A LOT this time and felt extremely prepared… so I’m thinking I should have made it this time. Nope! I actually did worse. So Knock, Knock!! Paleeessse let me in!! I’m trying so hard now!! Gonna keep my head up high, Pray and Study.

J

Oh how I've missed you these summer months

Can I just telling about the insane craving for hot chocolate I had last night? It’s gotta be autumn. I was sitting in my room drinking green tea and I got really chilly. I wrapped myself in a blanket and fought my craving because I didn’t wanna get out of bed and chance the fact that I wouldn’t be able to sleep if I went out to get a cup of hot chocolate. Call me old if you want to but if I drink or eat too much sugar or caffeine after a certain hour I could be up ALL night and I so didn’t want that to happen. So I stayed wrapped in 2 comforter blankets, watched Army Wives and passed out with the TV on. I will be getting hot chocolate tonight! That is for sure!!

Can I just tell you my list of favorites that I oh so miss in the summer months that I will be able to enjoy now that the colder weather is here??

Scarves

The smell of Wood stoves and fire places in the air whereever you go!
Orange and Yellow!
Hoodies and Gloves.
the chrip air in the mornings

(Ok you can’t eat these but they are sooo comfy I had to put it in my I Miss you during the summer list)



Hot chocolate (of course)
Hot Coffee and Bailey’s
Tomato soup and grilled cheese


(and I cheat on this one cause summer nights can be cold especially if it’s rainy!!)
Any soup for that matter

Hot Tea with Honey
Apple butter
Thanksgiving and Christmas left overs
Turkey, Stuffing, Cranberry on a white roll with mayo!! (thank you for teaching me this one Baby!!)

French toast with Taylor ham!

MMMMmmm MMMMmmm!! Oh have I missed you over the summer!!

Come Home soon, and in God we still trust

He isn't fighting the war yet, but He's training for it. I have friends out there, the Morristown National Guard, Marines, and Air force. in about 5 months he will be there too...
For all of you who have loved ones in the military and are standing by them, waiting for them to leave, or come home I wanted to send my love to you and to them with this video. It says so much.




Also with this one; Because though things in this country are rough we will get though it and we will be stronger because of it.

Things are looking up

Dear Dale,

I am supposed to be taking my insurance state exam right now. I went to bed early and was awake by 7am… but I chickened out. I need more time… or at least I feel like I do. I really feel like I don’t know anything and I just need to read the book over and over again… today I hate insurance. It’s making me feel dumb. It’s this whole other world that seems to be in another language and the more I read it the more it doesn’t make any sense. I know my decision to not take the test today was not a wise one… but I need more time to stare at the book and maybe absorb the words… I will be scheduling the exam for Tuesday morning. This time hopefully will be the last.

As for the Pennsylvania move; I have realized that some of my very favorite people live in Pennsylvania. My mother, uncles, aunts, Grandma Beth, lots of cousins, they all live in PA. I had a fantastic time spending the day with them on Thursday. Uncle Chris lives pretty close to my job and I can stay there a couple nights a week and the other nights I will stay with Mom but spend time with my Grandma Beth and Cousin Sammie. The drive is totally worth it because I will be closer to my family. I have missed them so much over the years and it will be good to see them as much as possible. The holidays will be a lot nicer this year because I will be with them. Last Christmas day Mark and I did nothing and it was depressing. I missed my family. We celebrate Christmas on Christmas Day. I think Mark would have gone with me if I asked him, but his plan was to do nothing considering his family does their big night on the Eve. I don’t have to worry about this though this year. Jason and I will be able to spend sometime together because he will be on leave and his family also celebrates Christmas on Christmas day.

As for Jason my Sailor man, he admitted how much he misses me. He said he was having a day that wasn’t the best and days like Thursday he wishes he was home. He also told me to look up flights to Texas because he’ll be phase 3 this weekend and he’ll be able to see me and leave base for a weekend or have me stay on base with him. My god what I would give just to be in his arms! I am not a Texas fan but I would go there to be with him.

My apartment is just fine the way it is right now. If I shut the door it feels like home.

Things are looking up now. I am very happy that the silver lining is showing through the storm.

All my Love,

Jessica Lynn

Good morning Boonton Fire Department is there a fire in my house?

The Boonton Fire Department showed up at my house this morning. It was kind of weird. I was told when I first moved in here that if there was a fire in my house that they would be here in seconds… well that’s true. I was still sleeping from too many beers at the St. Patrick’s Day hippie’s house and the fire call goes off. This is normal. The siren is in my backyard. It did wake me up but I ignored it and rolled over. Then my phone is ringing… its H. I ignore that too because I’m tired and I will see her later. Then I hear banging on my door. I figure its H and I’m thinking Jez I guess she really needs me. “What?!” I call in my raspy I’m not awake yet voice. It wasn’t H who opened my door, it was CJ dressed in full fire apparel. “There’s an alarm going off in your house, you need to come outside.” He informs me and then turns around and walks out. I did what he asked… not even stopping to put on shoes. I was fully dressed, I went to bed that way because I was drunk. It was all so weird and I was like WTF? Basically… The trucks were all out on the street, and there were firemen and women all over the place… Jack, CJ, & Ray and a couple others I knew from living next door. they were all looking at me… I was like uh… sorry guys. I called H back and sat on the porch steps.

H: Are you ok? Me: Ya. I’m good you guys heard the call huh? It’s the alarm upstairs in Jim’s place. H: Ya we heard it on James’ radio. What happened? Me: Not sure yet I gotta go though and find out. H: Ok call me back.

The chief called me over and asked if I knew how to get in touch with Jim, I said yup and blew up his phone. I called him and his sister Kurry three times each and then left a message with Jim. According to the chief and CJ they were cleaning the firehouse and they heard the alarm going upstairs. Since no one was answering the door, they had to sound the alarm to get in there. Jack and a couple of the other guys came down form Jim’s place with the smoke detector still blaring. They brought it to the truck, changed the batteries and it was all over. Jim called me back and I put him on the phone with the chief. Ray teased me about being in my socks… I told him CJ told me I had to come out and I did… shoes weren’t really on my mind. Then he commented on the fact that they didn’t match. Lol. Well I dunno socks are socks. Is it safe to go back in? I inquired. CJ said I dunno I’ll ask the chief. And so it was. Just like that the street was completely quiet again. I got my shoes on and went for coffee.

I guess this whole leaving Boonton thing is going to be eventful after all.

Thanks again BFD for your quick response and for keeping me safe.

Boonton Clean Sweeped

P.S. My neighbors, the Boonton Fire department, and drum core came back from Ogdensburg, NJ fireman's parade with a clean sweep. They took first prize in everything judged and had their small but traditional victory lap from the top of the hill to the front of the fire house. These are the events that I will miss the most about living on this street and in this fantastic little town! congratulations Boonton FD!!

Dale, Will it really be alright? I hate moving!!!

Ever since our youth pastor Dale Forsman passed when I was a sophomore in high school, I have written my diary entires to him. Dale was so easy to talk to and at times... still today I know he is listening.

Dear Dale,

How is it all hanging up in Heaven with Jayson Conrad, Grandpa, and Uncle George? I could ask about everyone else but there is such a long list. I haven’t written you in a while Dale, I am sorry. My diary consists of letters to Grandma and those have pretty much run out. I wrote Grandma a letter in August apologizing for slacking off because my boyfriend was in boot camp… and I even feel like that was not an excuse good enough. I miss my family and how it all used to be. I even feel like I am whining to you right now. But these are all different stores for different times so let’s get to the facts of now. The fact of the matter is this sucks!! Today Sucks!! Sorry but it does.

I’m sitting in my empty apartment with Buster the cat, whom will be leaving soon as well to go check out the new place. I am really going to miss it here… I’ve been in this apartment for 2 years almost, the town for two and a half, and yet again I find myself in limbo… waiting to move in with my mother and find a place to stash all of my worldly belongings. I don’t have much I guess… enough to fill one big room… but it is mine and I am very sad that soon… I won’t have a room to put it in. I do lie… it is not a completely empty apartment. My room is completely in tack and will stay as such until maybe a week before November 1^st. it does feel empty though… H and J moved practically everything out… down to even the hooks on the wall in the bathroom. A side from a few boxes… my stuff is all that remains… and some garbage too… which I’m sure I will have to dispose of because there are no garbage bags either… they were H’s. They actually did all this almost like I wasn’t here even though I asked if I could help… they asked once and I took a couple mirrors over in my car. I don’t work well with this. I never have… I hate moving (and I’m sure you don’t believe it because I have moved so many times in the last ten years it would make any normal person’s head spin) but right now I feel like another foundation has been ripped away from me… and it’s the only thing I have had solid for the past two years. I had something that I knew would be here and was mine… and now in 28 days that will be gone… and it actually already is. I don’t want to stay in this big 2/3s of the way empty place. Its depressing, and I don’t need to be in a depressing place all by myself with my thoughts, a cable TV and the ghost of a girl that was lonely for her mother (Melinda is another story. She has been very good but, I doubt she’ll be happy that I am the only one here now). I know this apartment is just a shell and stuff is just stuff… but everything has such memories… reasons for belonging to me and sometimes when I go to look for something and remember I threw it away I say Damn! I knew I would want it someday and that someday has to be today.

C has told me everything will be fine twice in this past week when I mentioned I didn’t want to move… and though it may be fine in the long run I am so crushed that she would just blow me off so quickly on the matter. Ya, she has moved a few times in the last two years… and her life has changed in big ways… but for her to say “it’ll be fine” in her I don’t wanna talk about this voice makes me annoyed… and maybe even think that she thinks its not as important to me as it really is to have my room and my stuff. It’s been the one thing that has kept me moving forward even though I’ve had issues moving on. The she changes the subject. I want to scream at her that it won’t and cry and make a scene but I let her move on. Clearly I will be “all right”. I have the chance to get my life back into some order and regain my independence I’ve been trying very desperately to find again. Maybe this is my chance. I will have a 4 hour commute to and from my mother’s to work in Branchburg, and that can help me clear my mind and tire me out so I sleep better at night. My mother will not bother me too much, she has her own way of living and I don’t think my presence will disturb her daily routine. It may even help us understand one another more, because we are just so back and forth with wither we are arguing or long lost BFFs, and it will help me be closer to my grandma B, and Sammie; All good things. Odds are, I will be able to get a new place sooner than not, maybe even before Jason returns from A school, which I will need because I plan on locking him in my room for at least 24 hours, because by this time I will be sexually deprived for almost 6 months and God help me I need a big room to keep him as my sex toy for a day. Lol! Which speaking of my hybrid sailor, I have called him twice today and I have yet to get a call back. I am not about to let my silly thoughts run away with that just because I’m depressed about being alone in my apartment. I do miss him though and God I wish he was here. It would have been a lot less lonely to go through if I had him and his blue eyed charm saying Angel it’ll be okay. Now him I can listen to the “its okay”, “it’ll be just fine”, and “you will be alright”. But he is not here in my world right now I sure could use him!

Thanks for listening Dale! You always help and I feel so much better about my future now than I did when I started this blog entry.

All My Love,

Jessica Lynn

I don't want to ...

I have a lot of “I don’t want to”’s running around my head.
I don’t want to move to Pennsylvania
I don’t want to stay working at Poor Henry’s
I don’t want to let my life move on (but I want to get on with my life)
I don’t want to leave Boonton
I don’t want to grow up
I don’t want to be so far away from Jason
I don’t want Jason to find someone better than me
I don’t want to be single anymore (I want a ring and a pretty white wedding with white roses and simplicity)
I don’t want December to take so long to get here
I don’t want my life to be up in the air
I don’t want to be stuck!!!
& I don’t want to be alone…
I don’t want to write any more letters
Be so far away from the ones I love
Drive two hours to get to work
I don’t want to be broke, smoke cigarettes, drink so much coffee, and gain more weight!
Oh and I don’t want to whine but it seems too easy
The don’t want tos are over lapping my want tos L Now maybe after I spit these don’t want tos out, I can work on accomplishing the want tos… because I really want to do a lot of stuff!!

a Bottle of white and a Sex in the City DVD

“Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart... and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away”

Girl friends. That was the theme of Sex in the City. The friends that come together no matter where they are and stand by one another no matter what… they are opinionated, one sided, compassionate, caring and crazy and they are always there for you when you really need them. Taking turns with the drama and the harsh words… telling you what you need to hear even when you don’t want to hear it, dragging you out of your house when you spent too many days on the cough crying over a failed relationship, pouring you a glass of wine or topping it off when it’s almost empty is what your best friends do. I have some pretty fantastic friends too! I got a text from H yesterday saying I got Sex in the City on DVD. Are you around tonight? Do you want to watch it? I said Hell ya!! Our first H&J evening in a while and It was pretty cool. We made pasta with the chicken my cousin made, chardonnay, oil, garlic, onions& peppers. Cracked a bottle of white and popped in the movie. I still swear that Sex and the City’s Carrie and Big are the same relationship as Jason and I; save the fact that Big was married twice already. But that’s what they do with that show… take all kinds of different people and mix them into something you can relate to. Heather and I related all to well. We haven’t talked much lately… but in the hustle and bustle of our lives we got different. It’s hard to live with a friend. She spends a lot of time with her boyfriend and I spend a lot of time with my laptop. I also spend a lot of time missing my boyfriend. That Heather admits she doesn’t know how I do it, and she can’t relate at all. I wish she could, but none the less she stands by me. She misses Jason too. H and I just became close when Jay and I were getting together. The saga of Jessica and Jason is a book she knows well. H and I talked about how we feel we wasted our time in the apt. we could have had more fun but we were busy fighting because I was in another world dealing with my mother’s illness. She blames Georgia boy. They didn’t get along and she spent time avoiding me because of it. We avoided each other. But not all is lost because when it comes down to it H&J will always be friends. When we needed each other we always came back to ourselves. She will be moving down the street this weekend. I will move to where ever I have to go… but we both don’t wanna leave Boonton Ave. I guess we needed to watch a movie and have some white last night to realize that we were not really as far away from each other as we thought. Leave it to Miranda, Carrie, Samantha and Charlotte to bring us back to each other again.