Thursday 6/19/2008

That was the Thursday that we through tears said goodbye before J left for RTC. I think that it may have been the hardest day of my life so far. yes I got him back for another month... but when I pulled out of his driveway I couldn't even get to the end of the street without hysterically crying. The CD Got caught on repeat of Roll On By kid Rock and i didn't know how to turn it off. J called it fate. I still have those text messages from that day. I couldn't save all of them, but i saved alot... and I go back and look at them over and over and they make me smile, and sometimes cry. Mainly They make me so proud of him and make me think that this year even though its been so tough has been so worth every moment of waiting because J means the world to me!! I love you so much!!

come home to me soon Baby!!
I'm here waiting for you with all my Love

58 days to go!

Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will. ~Author Unknown

The things that have going on lately;

I got a place... Sorta. the land lord at my Dad's place renovated the mid half of the house down stairs from my dad and the guy that moved in down there offered me the extra room for 200 a month. Not a bad deal right? Thing is I don't feel quite comfortable there. When I told Jay about it his response was "your living with some guy?!"

The last two weeks I have not been staying there though. I spent the first of them at my Mom's and Grandmas, and this week my uncle's
the venting is needed fof this purpose;

2 Tuesdays ago my friend big C Asks me if i wanna go out. I say I can't I'm 2 hours away at my mom's and its pouring rain I don;t have the money.
She insists on buying me a few beers. I still say no. $30 for the week right now 2 hours away don't wanna deal with 80 in the rain and I have no money. She thinks I'm mad at her because I "never opt to stay at my mom's house instead of going with her." I explain I don't want to come mainly because I didn't want to get stuck in Jersey with no money. C thinks that makes no scene because I live in NJ. it goes on for a little bit and then she gives it up.


talk to her briefly Saturday after a baby Shower.

Tuesday rolls around again and I get a text: Hey Stranger how are you?
I said your stranger than me
and then comes the are you alive blah blah blah...
and the I'm concerned about you Jess text.

I call her. Assure her I'm fine. Having some disagreements with grandma yada yada and having second thoughts with staying at the house in Jersey but whatever maybe we can hang out tomorrow night.

Images of Self

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The Questions:
1. What is your first name?
Jessica
2. What is your favorite food?
Seafood
3. What is your favorite color?
Pink
4. Favorite drink?
D&Ds iced coffee
5. Dream vacation?
Lake Tahoe
6. Favorite hobby?
writing
7. What you want to be when you grow up?
it is what it is
8. What do you love most in life?
Sunshine
9. One word to describe you?
quirky

Cecelia Fern

Welcome to the world Cecelia Fern
Tuesday, May 19th 2009
One beautiful baby girl born to Scott and Keli and her two big brothers!!

Wordless Wednesday

I decided that I would go along with 4 little men and Girly twins today and do a little wordless Wednesday... Because Honestly... There are no words for Sammie and my goofyness last night!!