How I met my "Trouble"

Is it safe to say, when you don't look something real comes your way?
and what is honestly real?

When Trouble and I met, it was the literal day that J had totally screwed me. J called me from MS and said "hey I'm back in the states, wanna drive down here (from MA) and have some steak and get laid?" I was shocked and annoyed by his total ignorance about me supporting his every move while deployed and in Naval School just to become a booty call. SO I was done. I got off the line with him, went into the Anchor and switched my undrank draft to a shot of Wild turkey. Across the bar from me was Trouble. He was sitting by a Keno Machine next to his cousin (Wasn't sure if his cousin was a girlfriend or a friend or what) and I was staring at him trying to get him to come over to me. I made the mistake of mentioning to my Aunt I thought he was hot, but I couldn't tell if he was wearing a ring (I know way better to mess with the local girls around here and in general there aren't a lot of hot single guys at all... they are all taken...) So my Aunt goes right over to him and asks him "How many times have you been married" (yup... She's crazy just like I am... Teenager in a 58 year old body) I was mortified... She reports back with "he's never been married." he gets up to smoke a cigarette with the mystery girl and as he passes he looks at me and says don't worry i was looking at you too and I'll be back over to talk with you in a bit. We talked for a while, At the end of the night he gave me a flower and went home. He didn't try to kiss me, he didn't try to talk me back to his place, and he told me that he was sure that we could really make each other happy that night when we were texting back and forth. (ya... i did it... I texted him like an hour after he left lol)


I didn't hang out with Trouble Friday night... We texted back and forth through his lunch break while i was out job hunting... and then that night I went drinking at the Anchor again with my aunt and uncle, took a ride on a bike and lost my Cell phone. Now I did hook up with bike guy... I was drinking... Freshly single New girl in a New town... and Seriously scorned by a Sailor... I didn't sleep with him though and all I kept thinking was "Why do I feel like I'm cheating on Trouble????"

I think God decided I needed to lose my Cell phone that night for 2 reasons:

1. I shouldn't be taking rides from Strangers on Harleys
2. Time to REALLY start a fresh life... Get the numbers of the people that really count and leave the people that I thought meant something to me behind...

If i had the power to take back one single night I would. I could not though. Some times Aunt Cyndi teases Trouble sometimes about giving him the 3rd degree when we first met... and he didn't get the 3rd degree at all... Since this has happened more than once recently, I had to tell Trouble what it was about. Trouble didn't take it well. He was hurt and confused. Typical guy I suppose, but I never figured I would have to worry about Trouble being upset about something that happened before I was his girlfriend. It too a little while for me to get him to understand that I didn't expect him to come into my life, but he did and I couldn't help but fall for him.

My friend Trouble would have understood. My boyfriend Trouble may think about this too much... or maybe I will. Our relationship has been based on the truth. He knows everything about my trials the last year. I told him first thing hello Trouble, I'm a train wreck right now. Loving me is easy, but dealing with me sometimes is tough. When I get to thinking too much I need someone to help me relax. He took this job fully knowing, and the past couple months have been fantastic. We click so well, and I think its because we are great friends first. Being with him is like being with family. He really is that comfortable.

So much to be thankful for

Every holiday seems to start as stressful and ends as fantastic. This year was not nearly as stressful, but it had its beginnings. My mother and I had our annual (every couple of months) stress talk. Waiting on whether Ninja was going to join our table with cousin SML halted right after the mother talk, and it was topped off with getting stuck celebrating the annual world wide Thanksgiving Eve drink fest against my will (all though I did start the fest early and just did not get to go home when I wanted to). I did however talk with Cousin SCL, my brother for a minute, and good ol Bry for about an hour as I topped off my wired by eggnog Thanksgiving Eve.

The day arrives with again the usual slight headache and lack of sleep. Trouble and I joined Cyndi and Orie upstairs for a cup of coffee and then Headed to Trouble's Mother's house for our first Thanksgiving Feast. To tell ya the truth, I wish Trouble would hang out with his mother and sister more often. They love him so much and treat him so great when he is around them. He seems happy to be there, and always excited to leave. Trouble's mother is a great cook. We had a 15lb turkey, Peas, Corn, stuffing, butternut squash, mashed potatoes and of course stuffing. We were stuffed to the gills and falling asleep at the table all ready... at least I was...
Trouble's mother's fiance is a hair dresser in Boston and he decided Trouble needed a hair cut.


Before he knew it he was a whole new guy! after the hair cut we hugged goodbye and headed to my house for our second dinner.


Uncle O got a 20lb bird. I made some fresh mashed turnips and some broccoli salad. I don't know how anyone makes an entire meal; I was beat after chopping boiling mashing and mixing for an hour and a half. It all turned out fabulous but still I could have used a nap and didn't even have time.






Dinner was wonderful and our bellies have been full ever since. In fact I was so tired that I couldn't even move to go back upstairs to watch The Giants play Thursday night football. Though I am happy to say I didn't wanna watch my boys in blue get beat again this season.

All and All there is so much to be thankful for. From our Massachusetts table to yours have a Happy Holiday Season!!

3 Birthday Cakes, Tons of Turning 30 fun!!

This Birthday was a lot of fun! I honestly was scared to turn 30.

Now I am so happy to say my 20s are now over and I have plently to look forward to!

Here's to a decade that will be more fun than the last! this year is going to be great!

Birthday cake from Dave

Birthday cake from Lenny and Diane at work!

Birthday cake from the 2 coolest people in New England: Aunt Cyndi and Uncle Orie!

Wordless Wednesday

Trouble in Massachusetts

So get this!!

Trouble's Uncle Ben Who is younger than Trouble had people over last night. Trouble's Cousin Tracy and Jess went over to Ben's house to hang out with the boys.

They played like 15 games of beer pong and a couple flip cup games and Trouble and Jess (all of them honestly) were hammered.

So Trouble gets the bright idea to get me back for the last couple of times Jess got drunk and poured a beer/water on him.
He throws a beer at Jess.
Well Jess being Jess throws one back
he throws another beer on Jess.
Jess gets him back again

fun right?
not in Trouble's Mind.
In Trouble's mind He's pissed because the last couple times Jess threw liquid at him He did not retaliate... so Drunk Jess is supposed to let Trouble throw beer on her with out retaliating.

Drunk Jess does not think this way. all Jess(es) retaliate.

Trouble gets pissed.... He decides to walk home with out telling drunk Ben, Tracey, Uncle Miles or anyone else that he's leaving, where he's going or anything for that matter. He leaves his cell phone and all his stuff... and takes off...

mean while, back at Ben's ranch, Drunk Jess and Uncle Ben realize that Trouble has left the building.
And the Trouble hunt begins.
He's in the woods, he's on the roof, he's in the eves over the garage, he's hiding in the bathroom upstairs, he passed out in one of the cars in the driveway... WRONG!

Drunk Jess is at loss for what to do. WTF???

Drunk Tracy and uncle Miles take a ride to the store to get stuff... before they go they ask Drunk Jess if she wants to go. No she says... (freaking out) I'll just stay here and wait for Drunk boy to come back to me... Tracy wants to know if Drunk Jess wants anything... Ya... Her Bizarre cranky Trouble back here stat! and ice cream... cause that will at least keep her sadness at bay...

they go they come back they bring ice cream Swedish fish, bugles, all kinds of munchy stuff (oh ya they weren't just drunk) They did not bring Trouble though.

Ben convinces drunk Jess to call off her search and will resume in the morning when the sun tries to come out (it was still raining though) (it was raining ALLLLLLLL day and night)

Drunk Jess wakes up hungover Jess and alone. Ben goes out in the woods to look for Trouble again. Jess stays and paces and can't find her phone. Ben's Couch swallowed it. Ben comes back with No Trouble. Ben makes the couch give back Jess' phone and then she calls Tracy and asks if Tracy had heard from Trouble.

Yup he's right here on the couch... let me get him.
Oh he says he'll call you when he wakes up.

Jess drives from Rawley to Beverly, stops for coffee and then Goes to see Trouble at his place. She takes his phone and phone charger to him and climbs the three sets of Stairs. (for some reason there are A LOT of places that have a million stairs and everyone Jess knows in Massachusetts lives on the top floor)
Trouble opens the door and looks at her.

Jess says you didn't want to talk to me?

No and I still don't, I'm still mad.

Fine! Jess huffs turns and leaves.

The next couple hours she panics feeling she's helpless to lose her boyfriend and best friend in MA.Trouble won't talk to her for hours and when he finally texts her he says he's aggravated and needs time to unwind. He's not sure when he will call her again.
Jess has flash backs of J and REALLY freaks out. She has a very hard time believing that
Trouble is not talking to her over a beer spilled on him but that really was the case.

After blowing up Trouble's phone multiple times He finally answers.
The boy walked 25miles because he got mad. 5 and 1/2 hours and when he got there he was still pissed. WoW!
Needless to say, Jess Decides that she will let this go.

My Take,

We've had too many fun times and few bad. I Dunno if I could handle T pulling this on me again, but if we come to this bridge again, We'll see if we can cross it. With out Trouble being in my life I don't think I would have stayed in Salem as long as I have. I am homesick and miss my family more than I have words for. Trouble has made Home feel like home for me, and Mass feel like home to me. So I call it even. I've cause my share of trouble myself trying to figure out where I belong as it is. Forgiveness is due on both hands and He deserves it as much as I.

Big move

Everything I need to Know I learned in Jersey, Then I moved up to New England Thanks to Aunt Cyndi, with some hesatation and its a whole different ball park here in the land of the witches. People are different around here, maybe its me though because I find myself unwilling to meet new people. I have met one S, and He has become way more than a friend. S has been fantastic at showing me around his world that has become mine.